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anonymous wrote:

I am 18, and I really don't know how I first started watching porn. I was about 13 or so when I started masturbating, and about 15 when I started watching porn, some even gay porn. I have been a christian for 9 years now, and I feel absolutely horrible. I don't feel like I can help others or be a part of a youth group. I don't wanna tell anybody because the judgement I will receive, but I Want Help. I can't have a steady relationship because I feel like I'm not worthy of having a girlfriend. I don't know what to do, but I know I don't want to continue to watch porn.It is slowly but surely ruining my self being. Please pray for me. I want to be able to grow up and have a family but I don't feel like I will ever make it that far. I pray to be free from this, but I keep watching. Please, Please pray for me and all other who are like me.

 

Anonymous wrote:

I made the mistake of looking at some playboy mags when I was very young.Now I am in my 50's and still have a adiction to porno.I don't look at pono now but I am haunted by images that pop into my mind.This is driving me crazy!! I would be very thankful for any prayers or help.

 

PD wrote:

I am trying to stop having porno images in my mind, they just keep poping up in my mind. i woke up this morning and rember that I had some kind of porno based dream. This makes me very angry, why can't this stop? I pray often for help. PD

 

Anonymous wrote:

I am a 47 year old man and I am a porn addict. I have been addict to porn and masturbation since I was a young teen. Several years ago soon after my 2nd marriage began I moved into having oral sex with men. I always felt so discusting and cheap with every time. I felt so ahamed but every time God would be there wanting to help me but i would say no and turn from him. I have been lying to my loving wife. Recently I thought that I had been exposed to a std. So I cried out to the Lord and he was there just like always but this time i turned to him to find his big loving arms open to embace me and say to me welcome home my son I will remove this bondage of sin from you. And at that moment he did just that, I gave it all to him and every since I feel so much weight of guilt and sin lifted off me. Why Lord did I wait so long! God spoke to me that I needed to confess my sins to my wife and the ones that I have hurt with my sexual addiction to begin the healing and restoration of my life. I have told my wife about all of it. I was ready to be kicked out and thought she would never want to see me ever again! I have deeply hurt her by not the acts that I did but by lying to her for all of these years, disrespecting our marriage and breaking her heart. She told me that if I seek help for my addiction and problems that there may be a chance for our marriage. Thank our wonderful Lord! It is because of him that I still have a shot at doing the right thing. I pray every day for his guidance and that he continues to heal my mind, spirit and my marriage. I pray every day for anyone else that has this addiction and that they too will turn to God because we can not do it by ourselves! Only through our blessed Lord and his covering peace on all situations can we overcome our sins! Blessed be his name forever and ever!

 

immortalbound wrote:

Dear beloved brethren, i too suffer from an elongated addiction and hope to strengthen you all with the love of OUR LORD!!! wait upon HIM for HE says come as you are, and behold you shall be delivered! The lust of the flesh has run ramped for long enough and in the great majority of us, some more susceptible than others.It is natural to desire sex but sin to fornicate. Sexual immorality can be committed in thought as well as flesh, so take upon yourselves more a mastery of this. We are tempted by our own flesh: rebuke the urges,block them out,pray to desire cleanliness and good things.Let us take joy in the LORD rather than worldly things we can decide. Furthermore i will say, i am 23 years of age and came much way from my prier self, i was molested at the age of four in my sleep by other children whom were not much older than my own self, it was as a plague that was stricken upon us all, by the hands of a man who sexually abused a little girl who in return came to show us what she learned. It wasn't long before i was curios and wanted to play games leading to to sexual activity, soon after was introduced to pornography, though i was unable to thoroughly understand it i still enjoyed it. At the age of ten i discovered masturbation, and indulged all too much. I found my self doing it in the living room in my shirt with others around!!! how ridiculous!! and even one time in the classroom in the fifth grade!!! and was discovered by my onlooking teacher with a horrified look of unbelief, though she never said anything i realized it wasn't right and then on refrained from "in the shirt masturbation".. i know lol! actually it's terrible. Later i tried seducing women of all sorts and sure enough i was able to enthrall many women.53, 36, or 16 years old i didn't mind , at the age of 17 i was seduced by a fourteen year old girl that had already been having sex for several years!! worst of all it was a friend of mine's sister and he seemed completely fine with it. i was repulsed and repented. At work i wold receive oral sex even thought of becoming a man whore. this persisted until the age of 19, until i received a strong conviction from THE LORD. I decided i would marry and would do things right for a change. So i called upon GOD to bring me the woman i should love and marry and just days later i found my wife on Easter day! We married immediately! and have been together two and a half awesome years. i still desire pornography have repented and backslid countless times. GOD still leads me, i am guided by HIS SPIRIT to do HIS works. HE in fact guided me here to confess and share my testimony. Some miracles are immediate others take a little time. BE well and of good cheer for our GOD is faithful and just to forgive and to cleans of all unrighteousness, HE will fulfill your hearts desire so that your joy be made full. so desire HIS will!!! GOD bless you all! you shall be in my prayers! may you have success!!! GOD is AWESOME!!! Amen!

 

Bill wrote:

I cant put a time to the start of my porn addicition,it was probably in grade school and playboy magazines.Then I found my Fathers hard core porno.Ever since this time I have been viewing porn and masturbating on and off for 41 years.I cant tell you how sick I am of this and feel God is mad at me for asking for help and backsliding so many times ....But I know God is A God of the many chances.I truly believe there should be an organization to fight this ,just like any other addicition,

 

 

Angela wrote:

Hi, Im the daughter of a pastor and I have been struggling with porn addiction, masturbation and having sex. I have never said this out loud or written it outloud but i struggle everyday with watching porn and masturbating. I want to put an end to the road that I am continuting on and ask that people pray for me and give me the strength and will power to free myself from this. I feel that the more i continue down this the further i am from God and closer to following the ways of this world. Once again i ask that you keep me in your prayers