was saved when I was three, and lived to be a scoffer all my life. I was raised well by my parents and do the "Christian" thing, but my heart was never in it. I was selfish, prideful, and didn't care about anyone but me. Wehn I was 11, I just started to masturbate like I've been doing it all my life. I'd do it when ever I was alone, even st my Christian school. It was a nasty habit. When I got into pronography and it only got worse. I was doing these things for 4 years!! I hardly ever went to Church, but when I wanted to stop masturbating and looking up porn; I started to go every chance I got. I went to Church for 2 years straight and nothing was changed. I still wanted to get rid of it, but at the same time I didn't want to let go. One year I went to a Christian camp in MI and it opened my eyes and showed me my heart wasn't in it. We came back from MI and my Church had a new youth pastor. The first time I heard his message I realized that all along I was doing it for me and by me alone. I had to give it to God and trust in Him to take care of it. So that night I gave my problems to God and have been clean ever since. My life has gotten better. I'm not worring anymore, I'm not jumpy anymore, and I'm happier than I ever thought possible in this cruel and corrupted world!:) It was all thanks to God, and God using my youth pastor, and believe it or not Rush of Fools! That band is so true in their lyrics! The songs they sing truely helped my growth and walk with Christ!