I have been struggling with pornography and masturbation since I have been 11 years old. I often look at porn for an excessive amount of time and then have period of time where I try to change my ways. I've never been able to treat it. My thoughts are always filled with sexual desires and thoughts I can't control. I haven't told anyone about my struggles yet. I just wanna live for God and quit this habit. I really feel like I am living a lie. I feel like I go to church and put on a smile and pretend everything is fine. I go to youth group and do the same. I'm sick of being fake and afraid of speaking up. I've always been surrounded by God and have always felt his love. I wanna be set free from this addiction. I've been through a lot and I feel like masturbation and pornography release me from the constant stress and pain.
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