Josh Ferris wrote:

have battled a porn addiction since I was 16. It started as "research" on how to have sex. Then, it slowly began to consume everything I thought, and everyone that I looked at. I battled every day, and I even got to the point where I justified it through the Bible. Paul's thorn was the way I looked at it. It was just that one thing that I would always have. God's grace would forgive me and wash me clean. It wasn't until about a month ago that I realized how much bigger of an issue it was. I had trivialized it, but it was so much more than I had realized. At a Sunday evening service, I made the decision that I was going to lay it down. I wanted my mind to be consumed with one woman, my wife. God spoke to me and said, "Before you can walk in victory, you have to walk by faith." In other words, you have to do it his way. I wanted so badly to have it removed but God finally made it clear at that service. God isn't going to take your problems away. He isn't going to wash it all away. You have to give it up. You have to lay it down. God is standing next to you with an open hand, and he is waiting for you to hand it over. There are all kinds of ways to start off. Keeping a journal, finding a prayer partner, etc, are great ways to begin your life of freedom. Here is one thing that I will add. Find a song that you love and means a lot to you. When you find yourself wanting to look around at pornography begin to sing that song. I have found that by filling your mind with God, it pushes out the urges to walk into darkness. Connect yourself to God through a worshipful song. Music is an amped up way to connect with God. God is the one that will change your life, not any person. Don't ever feel like you are worthless or undeserving because of yourself. If you think your world will fall apart, it won't. Nothing in this world is so devastating that your life will be left in a state beyond repair. If you say nothing, then you accept nothing.




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