Today, I was feeling bored and when I have felt bored in the past, I usually turn to masturbation or pornography. But, I turned on a video that usually "gets me going" and as it was starting, I realize that I wasn't interested in it. It was one of the first times when I just did not want to watch what was playing on the screen. So I just turned it off. There have been times when I didn't feel like I had the power to stop. I felt so empowered today, though . . . like I could do anything. It's an amazing first step for me.
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