I have been married for over 33yrs.We meet by attending a christian fellowship. He was 20 and I was 18 when we married. Recently I had been in a deep depression for around a year and didn't understand why exactly. Recently I found some pornography on the computer and my husband refused to talk about it. I know he lies to me about even the smallest of things and refuses to discuss anything with me(I know I shouldn't judge). When I asked about the pornography he denied it and said "You don't know what I do when I'm not here." This is true because he runs a computer company that we are both company directors in and he leaves early in the morning and returns much later in the evening than he says he will be home.I haven't been involved with the company for at least the past 7 years and prior to that only in matters that he allowed me to be involved with (he is in total control). I really don't know him any more! He left the day after I asked him about the porn on the computer. I am attending a local church, and now that he has left the house the depression has left me too, although I continue to feel terribly broken hearted. I fully trusted him in all areas of our life and I am at a loss, the Lord is kind to me. My husband hasn't contacted me since he left and it looks like we may end our relationship. I have a lot of sorting out to do with God's help and your prayers I know I will be okay!
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