I have been married 35 years in May, my husband is addicted to porn and I still have the pain that I have dealt with for the past 35 yrs. I didn't know these things about my husband until approx. 15 years ago. He knew how I felt about porn, being raised in church, and my faith in God, so he did it behind my back. I am now 55 yrs old and wish I would have done things differently, but I have two beautiful daughters and a grandson. I don't want to hurt anyone but I am considering a divorce. I am so lonely and the thought of what he does while in the computer room with the door closed just makes me sick. We went through this another time, I left for a week, and my reason for coming back then was the fact that he promised he would get rid of the computer and all of the porn in our house, he did but one year later he bought another computer, supposedly for me because he thought I missed our other one, well guess what I didn't ask for a computer and knew what was going to happen. He is deeper and deeper into the porn sites and the movies, the noise actually wakes me up in the night and makes me sick. I don't think I can take much more, I really want out. He has never been a christian and he doesn't think he is doing anything wrong. I have tried to explain to him that Lust is the same as adultery to me, which he has also done in the past. I guess I stayed for the children back then, but now they are married and on there own, the want me to be happy. They have walked in and caught him and I was devastated. I am just sick over this and have been praying for years that something good will happen but to no avail. I don't know what to do! Who can love a 55 year old woman with no hope for her future!
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