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Love Letter to a Porn Star

My love letter to you.....

This is a very hard letter to write, I am struggling to find the words.  I know you don't know me but  I am all too familiar with you. I hope you will hear my heart as I share with you the impact you have had on my life and my marriage.  Please bear with me as I preface this letter by giving you a glimpse of what my world has looked liked........

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The Journey of Restoration; Wives, What Do You See?

Even though you may see your husband moving forward on his journey towards deliverance, sometimes it is difficult to see him as God sees him.  I can relate all too well.  We tend to see through eyes of the past.  We see through distorted lenses.  We see through the pain, the tears, the memories.

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Excuses, Blame, and Responsibility; More Candid Talk to Husbands

I normally do not write posts directly to husbands.  Because of my own journey, my passion is to give hope to wives whose husbands have or are currently struggling with an addiction to porn. However, this post is different.  I cannot keep silent on this subject any longer.  As your sister in Christ, I write this in love and in hopes that God can use it to encourage you to be different from the husbands that I hear about.  Please bear with me as I explain what I am talking about.

 

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To The Husband Who Has Been Caught....

I want to write to you frankly and honestly from a wife's perspective.  A wife who has seen her porn addicted husband delivered and her marriage restored.  A wife who has endured the brokenness of this kind of betrayal  and experienced the healing, redeeming power of Jesus Christ. I want to give you hope. So let's start at the place where most husbands addicted to porn eventually find themselves........

 

You've been caught.  Your wife now knows your secret.

 

Now what?   Is there hope for your marriage? Will your wife always be this angry?  Will your wife ever be able to forgive you? Will she leave you?

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Secrets that Destory

You now know his secret.  Your husband is addicted to porn.

More than likely, you caught your husband looking at porn or you found it by accident on the computer.   You were hoping it was just a slip up, a wrong click of the mouse, a one time event.  But as time has gone by and more truth has been revealed, you realize it wasn't a one time event but an ongoing obsession.  The choice that you will eventually have to make is whether you should tell somebody or not.

Your husband, most likely, will not want anybody to know.  He may be telling YOU to keep it a secret.  After all, it is his secret not yours.  It's his to keep.  The truth is, you feel so shameful about this new discovery that you are okay with not telling anyone.  What would others think?  You begin believing the lie that it is best for nobody to know.  It could destroy the "perfect" christian family image that you portray to those around you. So you hide your pain.  You put your mask on every time you leave your home.  You smile, determined to not let anyone see your wounded heart.  You pull back from others.  You seclude yourself, so fearful that those who know you best  may catch you at  a week moment and see your brokenness. You make excuses for not going out with your girlfriends.  You cry yourself to sleep at night. Nobody knows what it is like to be you. And part of you is just fine with that. The other part of you wants so badly to be heard, to be understood, to be free from the secret that has left your heart so painfully shattered.

What do you do?

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