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Just for Today; Encouragement for my Hurting Sisters

As a NEW YEAR begins, many will take time to reflect on the past twelve months;  the joys, the growth, the changes, the challenges along with the tears, the regrets, the losses, the hurts and the pain.

Although a new year is dawning, many have hurts from yesterday that will carry over.

Some sisters are still on their arduous journey of healing while others may have just begun. Friend,  I don't know where this new year finds you, what hurts you woke up with today, what wounds are gaping open or what thoughts torment you. However, I do know that in the darkness of betrayal, Jesus illuminates that darkness with the light of His enduring love and there He embraces His beloved, broken daughter.  Friend, this is where your healing begins!

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Love Letter to a Porn Star

My love letter to you.....

This is a very hard letter to write, I am struggling to find the words.  I know you don't know me but  I am all too familiar with you. I hope you will hear my heart as I share with you the impact you have had on my life and my marriage.  Please bear with me as I preface this letter by giving you a glimpse of what my world has looked liked........

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The Journey of Restoration; Wives, What Do You See?

Even though you may see your husband moving forward on his journey towards deliverance, sometimes it is difficult to see him as God sees him.  I can relate all too well.  We tend to see through eyes of the past.  We see through distorted lenses.  We see through the pain, the tears, the memories.

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Sisters Supporting Sisters

Being the wife of a husband who has struggled with an addiction to porn is a difficult cross to bear.  Isolation and loneliness can become the norm in order to hide the shame this brings to the heart of a woman.  I understand.  However, as I have found in my own life, in order to become healthy, you MUST at some point, reach out to someone that can encourage you and help you to make sense of the emotions you battle everyday.  Not only do you need a trusted Pastor and/or counselor but a woman who understands....one who can share the road to healing with you. One who knows what it is like to walk through this kind of betrayal.

 

How do you find such a person?

First and foremost is prayer.  Pray that God would send that friend to you.  A divine connection in which she can help you and you can help her.  A woman who will encourage you and be quick to point you to Jesus.    Chances are, you may already be friends with a woman who has been broken by her husband's addiction to porn, but too ashamed for others to know.

 

Beyond finding a sister to share this journey with you I want to encourage you to become involved with a support system, a group of women that you meet with on a regular basis who are passionate about becoming the women God has designed for them to be. Not in spite of their husband's addiction but because of it! No doubt, God will use these women to strengthen you and help you on your journey to wholeness.

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Trash of Treasure

NONE of us will go through this journey of life without pain and suffering  invading our hearts.  Pain is no respecter of persons. It won't just be a one time event but a sporadic companion until we enter eternity.

 

 

 

Pain changes us.

 

Pain messes with us.

 

Pain leaves us broken.

 

Pain makes us uncomfortable.

 

Pain humbles us.

 

Pain helps us to realize we are not in control.

 

Pain reveals our hidden struggles.

 

Pain challenges our faith.

 

 

 

The above is not so bad, right?  SO, why do we do ALL we can to avoid it?

 

 

 

Could the reason be more about what accompanies pain than the pain itself?   You see, pain will never come to us solo.   With pain can come fear, worry, anxiety, insecurity, depression, hopelessness, anger, guilt, shame, and so on.  Anytime there is pain these "trashy" emotions are not far behind.  SO, what do we do? How do we find treasure and throw out the trash?  How do we experience pain and keep our hearts uncontaminated by the garbage that steals the treasures that were meant for our benefit?

 

 

 

It is a choice.  You and I get to choose whether we will allow trash or seek treasure each time we are faced with painful circumstances.  The trash will come to us easily...almost automatic.  We must intentionally filter out the trash from the treasure.  The Word of  God is our ultimate filter.  It will expose the garbage of our hearts. As we confess and surrender each piece to Him,  the blood of Jesus cleanses us and transforms us into  vessels of honor for His Glory. God is so amazing!

 

 

 

Not only that, but sometimes, God may use someone close to us to help us recognize when we have allowed trash to be thrown in.  Our stinkin'  attitude will, in no doubt, reveal what is in our hearts.  Our flesh is all about "me" and "my" happiness and "my" wants.  If we allow our flesh to be in control, it won't be long before the trash of bitterness, anger, and unforgiveness, etc. turns toxic in the open wounds that pain has left behind.   What a waste, right?  This trash releases unhealthy thoughts and mindsets that spreads like cancer if not removed.  Everyone around is influenced by it's stench. These things will never produce anything of value.

 

 

 

Treasure is quite the opposite.  As you know, treasures are rare and few find them.  Those who do find them usually don't just stumble upon them.  They have searched with wisdom and courage on their quest.  With divine, empowered determination they have ignored the negative voices that speak to their wounded hearts.   Forgive him?  Love Her?   Pray for them?  They will not allow this kind of garbage to steal them of opportunities to find treasure in their trial and purpose in their pain. They fix their eyes on the true riches found only in Christ. 

 

 

 

Some have bought into the world's selfish mindset that your spouse, family, and friends were placed in your life for the sole purpose of bringing you happiness.  This thinking can create enough trash to warrant a landfill!  The truth is, these dear people will sooner or later cause pain to our hearts. But there is beauty even in that.  ALL of the relationships in our lives are about transforming our hearts to be more like HIS. They are not to define us, but change us!  As we allow that transformation to take place, joy happens. The trash of bitterness, anger, shame, offense, guilt and unforgiveness is replaced with the treasures of love, humility, peace, and grace. It is in those dark places that Christ teaches us valuable lessons that we would otherwise miss. With each heart break, we get the opportunity to learn more about Him and His amazing love and grace. We learn to be thankful for the relationships He has given us. We are free to love others because we realize that our true value, security and wholeness comes only from our relationship with HIM.   WE learn the valuable treasures of trust, surrender, and faith.  Don't get me wrong, I don't like to be hurt, I do not like pain. I have experienced my own accumulation of trash that needed a huge dumpster on occasion. Nevertheless, I can tell you, it is in those painful seasons, as I finally surrendered my stubborn self, that I have sensed my Father's love like no other.

 

 

 

What about you?  Are you hurting, dear one?  Are there wounds on the landscape of your heart?  Please be assured that Jesus cares about your brokenness.  He says in Psalm 147:3 that He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.  Isaiah 61:1 tells us that He was sent to bind up the the brokenhearted.  My friend, your pain does not for one second go unnoticed by God!!  He sees, he knows, and he understands. What you are experiencing was allowed because God plans to use it for good in your life.  There is PURPOSE in your pain.  In Romans 8:28,  He has promised us that He will work ALL things together for good according to His purposes.  ALL things includes your pain and season of suffering.  What if, instead of being so preoccupied with our pain, we desired God MORE than we desired for the pain to be removed? I can tell you that there would be much less garbage to deal with and so much more beautiful treasures to share.  We must shift our focus from our pain to our Healer. Not an easy thing to do but so worth every attempt. Just remember, dear friend,  God takes and creates beauty out of our messes with His precise grace. What now may seem so difficult and so painful, will be used to create the pathway of God's divine destiny for your life.  Thanks be to Jesus that in Him,  no pain is ever wasted.

 

 

 

So, will it be trash or treasure?  It's a choice each one of us has to make.  It's a choice we get to make over and over again!

 

James 1:2-3

 

Consider all joy, my brother(sister) when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance.  And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing

 

Mindy Adams