Been suicidal for a long time. Still can't find a good accountability partner and you'd think with living in Cali that people would be more open but they r really just more judgemental. Does it really matter whether or not I live a long life or not? I doubt it. Who wants to live a life with a past haunting him every day? 2 Scrips. come to mind:"The wages of sin is death but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord. and 2)"I have come that they may have life and have it more abundantly."