Stories

Anonymous wrote:

Hello. I am a 15 year oldboy who has been struggling with porn for 5 years. I am a pastors son, I lead worship for my youth program, and play in the worship band on Sunday mornings. Porn has really gotten me to the end of my rope and I know I can't face it any more. I've been seeking help for a while now and so far nothing has helped. Like I said before porn is sucking the life right out of me and I can't take it anymore. Can anybody help me?! I need it now more than ever. Everyone thinks I'm this huge Christian and Ifeel like such a fake! I know that I can't do this any more and I need to get through this! So please if you have any advice then please help me!

 

Anonymous wrote:

i'm 17! i'm from germany and i struggle with pornography. i'm hopeless... i know that god hate this and that i shouldn't do this but i can't stop it!! many years ago i began to watch that ugly videos... now i fight but how to stop it!! i tried all and fall again in the deepth of that sin! when will it end? there is another problem too i thought i had freedom in christ from pornography and i've told it in a youth group.it wasn't so and i've lied! and how can god forgive me if i've done it many times!! how can i get free from that sin??? please help!!!

 

jenjen wrote:

My husband has a history with porn. He claims that he has been "clean" for a long time now. What is bothering me is that we haven't had sex for a long time. He can't keep an errection. He doesn't seem attracted to me anymore or interested in me. Part of it is that I've had a lot of neck pain and recent neck surgery to remove the bad disc. But also, I've gained a lot of weight and feel so incrediably fat and ugly. All of these things make me feel insecure. I keep wondering if he has found a way to watch porn again. Some times life is just too much and I wish God would take me to heaven. I don't know whats wrong or what to do. He is probably sick of hearing me complain about being in pain, I know I'm sick of saying it. He is under a great deal of stress and has had to help me out more the last month. I'm rambling. Sorry. I just don't know what is wrong. Is it him or is he just not attracted to me anymore?

 

Anonymous wrote:

Good evening. I?m here to share with you how embracing God?s love and hope is helping to transform my life. MY LIFE BEFORE: Even though I knew Jesus when I was a youngster, my life didn?t always show it. Before starting counseling, my life was reckless, out of control, misguided and going nowhere. I was into drugs, drinking, and pretty much just an ungodly lifestyle ? anything to numb myself so I couldn?t feel the pain. I recently had a very serious wake-up call. Without going into details, I?m facing criminal charges and my wife asked me to move out. I miss my wife and children terribly. I was telling myself lies that I couldn?t do anything to change my life. I told myself I couldn?t make my life move in a different direction. In hind sight, I was running from being molested as a child by an uncle (and by the way, this was also the start of my addiction to porn ? the tool he used to seduce his victims). I continued to run and keep the secret for more than 30 years, but God was there waiting for me when I hit a wall, stopped running and came back to Him. MY LIFE DURING: When I finally reached out for help, I found New Hope?s ministry. Counseling is helping me in many ways - talking with someone and reading what my counselor suggested. My reading list: #1 was the Bible and then other titles related to my issues. I?m learning that I am not alone or the only one with these issues. The books are helping me understand what I?m going through and helping me heal from the scars of my abuse. I?m learning the depth of the affect the abuse has on my mind. In counseling, we figured out that music is the connection to my soul - how I connect with my feelings. I learned my old music was helping to reinforce the lies I was telling myself. It was negative, the exact opposite of uplifting, and it kept me down in my pit of despair. My moment of enlightenment came one day when I was scanning through radio stations and came across 91.9 Word FM. I had an overwhelming feeling of ?this is it?. Every hair stood on end and I just wept. I wiped the music slate clean and threw away all that music, literally, because I erased my iPod clean that day. My new music helps me realize that God DOES still love me and I CAN change my life. By being more positive and not always looking at the negative points of my life. I could do it one day at a time, one step at a time, with God?s help. As my new music collection grows, I noticed songs I had in my old collection. I think He was knocking, trying to get my attention. I even found a Bible to load on my iPod. My childhood and self-understanding were stolen from me, but I am healing from the effects of the loss. I AM a survivor! I truly believe in my heart that I wouldn?t be up here sharing my story if not for the Christian counseling and the support I am getting from my parents and sister. THANK YOU for being good Christian role models for me ? not judging me, just loving me and helping me. I am grateful for everyone who is so supportive. MY LIFE AFTER: I?m still counseling and don?t know how long it will continue. Only God knows when that will be. But I know I will do my part, keep trying and move on to a better life in Jesus. I still have legal issues to deal with as a result of my actions, and I still hope God?s plan leads me back to my family. I know with God?s help, I will make it through no matter what the outcome. MY MESSAGE TO YOU & OTHERS: You or someone you know may be running from something that happened in their past, or something happening now ? doing anything to avoid dealing with the issue. Don?t be afraid to talk to someone, to reach out. Don?t believe the threats ? talk to someone you trust. It?s not your fault and there is hope and a way out. Just because you were abused, doesn?t mean you will become an abuser. There?s no reason to hate yourself. I can?t bring my abuser to justice, but I hope I can help someone else. Getting help NOW can break the cycle ? and may mean one less victim. One less victim of the lies you tell yourself to try and protect yourself from people you thought you could trust. It?s never too late to set your life on the right course. That course is the one that leads to Jesus; He can help you understand that you?re not the person you think you are. He will always love you. VERSE

 

Anonymous wrote:

I'm at the end of my rope. If I cannot stop I'm not sure what will happen. It's gone on too long and I've tried to stop too many times to count.

 

Izzy wrote:

I'm now 14. At a young age, I didn't get along well with other children for ten whole years. I was alone and to fill this, I suppose I turned to pornography. I eventually got more friends, but the habit stuck. As I grew up, I learned more about my religion and how the arranged marriage focuses on living for the sake of the spouses happiness and for solely them. At this point I didn't have friends yet, so seeing how I could at least make someone else's life better gave me hope. But with masturbation, I know one day it'll hurt my future spouse. I cry when I think about this. I now have friends and a strong faith in god. I am so close to breaking these chains that hold me down. Wish me luck

 

kelly fox wrote:

I'm battaling a husband thats addicted to porn and need advice.I can't help but wan't a husband that wants me vs porn.I want to be in love again and have that lust again.It's been 19 long years one 8 year old daughter.I'ts only time before she walks in on him i have plenty of times.I'ts time for me to prtect my daughter and find love again don't you think?