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Tough Nights wrote:

My first experience with porn was around the age of 11. It wasn't really peer pressure or family issues, but I was molested years before, which could have triggered it. By the age of 14, I was fully addicted to porn. Any time I was alone, I was attached to my computer. By God's Grace, I was saved when I was 16 and my life dramatically changed. The fight got harder only because I was Mentally fighting porn. I would shut down the computer so I wouldn't look it up and I even set a password on the TV for adult programs. Things got better until I got a cellphone. Internet access dragged me back to porn and nearly ruined my life, but God pulled me out. Til this day I am fighting back my urges to watch porn, and God is by my side. You cant overcome this without God and don't try to. This is my testimony. Freedom Begins Here.

 

Anonymous wrote:

I am 14 years old and I am addicted to pornography. Sometimes i stop but then a couple months later i start up again. Please pray for me as I try to stop looking at pornography for good, before it completely ruins me. Of course, with Jesus' help because I can certainly not do this on my own. And i will also pray for all you others who are struggling with this addiction.

Anonymous wrote:

hello my dear brothers and sisters, i'm omar, i have 21 years old and actually i'm struggling with porn addiction, its kinda hard to say, i was watching Jimmy Needham testimony and i saw this page, and i said "why not", a few hours before i was watching a porn movie and pictures and stuff, i start this disgusting sin at the age of 13 when i was in middle school, mom and dad are no christians, and they did not talk to me about sex and stuff, so i dont remember when was the first time that i watch porn, i remeber that i printed pages of womens, i accept OUR LORD JESUSCHRIST 3 years ago, and its a diary struggling and fight against that, seriously, i dont know what to do, is disgusting is just a horrible habit and i can't still fighting no more, im tired, i have a beautiful girlfriend, is from my CHURCH and i don't wanna lose her, specially, I DONT WANNA STILL FAILING TO MY LORD JESUSCHRIST, I KNOW YOU GUYS CAN HELP ME, AND IF YOU ONLY PRAY FOR ME AND ASK OUR LORD'S HELP, I WILL VERY VERY GRATEFUL WITH YOU, GOD BLESS YOU ALL, AND GOD BLESS YOUR MINISTRY, THANKS FOR THIS PAGE.

 

Anonymous wrote:

i'm 17! i'm from germany and i struggle with pornography. i'm hopeless... i know that god hate this and that i shouldn't do this but i can't stop it!! many years ago i began to watch that ugly videos... now i fight but how to stop it!! i tried all and fall again in the deepth of that sin! when will it end? there is another problem too i thought i had freedom in christ from pornography and i've told it in a youth group.it wasn't so and i've lied! and how can god forgive me if i've done it many times!! how can i get free from that sin??? please help!!!

 

Izzy wrote:

I'm now 14. At a young age, I didn't get along well with other children for ten whole years. I was alone and to fill this, I suppose I turned to pornography. I eventually got more friends, but the habit stuck. As I grew up, I learned more about my religion and how the arranged marriage focuses on living for the sake of the spouses happiness and for solely them. At this point I didn't have friends yet, so seeing how I could at least make someone else's life better gave me hope. But with masturbation, I know one day it'll hurt my future spouse. I cry when I think about this. I now have friends and a strong faith in god. I am so close to breaking these chains that hold me down. Wish me luck

 

Anonymous wrote:

Many years ago I began my addiction to pornography. I've grown up as a pastor's kid and loved every minute of it, but with that comes responsibility... one I've failed at for too long. I hid my sin from everyone. I thought I could overcome it by myself. Then one year my youth group went on a trip to a youth conference in Hamilton, Alabama. One of the teen speakers talked about addictions. He said that its not hard to give up addictions. Once you truely encounter God, you begin to not want those things anymore. The reality of it is, we like the sin. We make it harder upon ourselves than it has to be. God's will and plan for our lives is PERFECT! He only wants the best for us, therefore how can we doubt him? That message really shook me! I layed down my addiction at the alter and have never been the same. Now that's not to say that it wasn't hard. It wasn't an immediate freedom. I had to work hard at it, reading my Bible, praying and seeking God daily! But the fight is well worth it! Now I have a love for my Savior unlike ever before. One that pornography could never replace. No longer am I bound to the ways of the devil, for I am free in Christ!

 

 

Anonymous wrote:

My name is Jeff, and I?m a monster. At least that?s how I feel. I have grown up in an abusive, dysfunctional home all my life. My father would physically and verbally abuse me and my two sisters from the age of maybe five on. Though thankfully, and I thank Jesus every day for this, never sexually. He would hit us and yell whenever we did something he didn?t want but my father was not my first incident of sexual abuse. My mother tried he best to protect us from his rage. When I was around ten or so, my sisters and I stayed the night at one of my mother?s friend?s house. Also staying there were a girl maybe thirteen and a boy sixteen years old. She was outgoing and we instantly got along but something about the boy felt wrong. When it was time to go to bed the girls went to one room and I was stuck in the same room as the sixteen year old. In the middle of the night I woke from a deep sleep to the feeling of someone unbuttoning my pants and pulling the zipper down. Even at that young I knew what was happening and what would happen if I didn?t do something. I fought with all my strength, knuckles white as I gripped on for life, and I cried. I didn?t fall asleep that night.. The next morning I told my parents but nothing happened. They talked to the boy and he of course denied it. A few months passed and the whole thing was passed off as the product of too much imagination. That was the first time I felt alone and sick and scared. Almost two years after that my mother passed away. My father became worse than ever. He would look up porn sites and magazines almost every day, not even bothering to hide his addiction. It was soon after I turned thirteen that my struggle with porn began. After my mother?s death, my father would drown himself in work and sin. One day while he was at work and I was alone in the house, I stumbled onto my father?s stash of porn magazines. I was disgusted at the sight at first, throwing the magazine down and walking away. But something kept drawing me back. I didn?t know it then but it was the devil drawing me into temptation. Several weeks later I came back to my temptation and I masturbated for the first time to my secret sin. And for a few years it was just looking at the one or two magazines my father kept around the house. But then I discovered porn on the internet and my secret sin grew out of hand. Through my high school years I struggled with my addiction. But I always went back. And then four years ago I finally accepted Jesus as my savior. But I kept my sin to myself. I was sickened and frightened but I just couldn?t stay clean. That sent me into the worst times of my life. Not only was I hurt and lost but I was lying about lying about my sin. I told myself I was going to change. But I just fell back into the pattern. But my first real victory came six weeks ago. I finally realized I was fighting a symptom, my addiction, instead of the cause, me. Since then I have been fighting for every day without the urge. As I am writing this it has been over three and a half weeks since I last looked at porn. I slipped once and I feel the shame and the temptation but today I am stronger than the temptation. I will be fighting for every clean moment every second of the rest of my life but as long as I am clean, I can live with that. But that?s not what I wrote this for. I think of my sixteen year old cousin facing the same choices that made me. I hope that he has enough courage to make the choice I couldn?t at first. I hope he doesn?t have to live with the regret like I have to. That is why I am writing this confession. My name is Jeff and I have been suffering with pornography addiction almost half my life. I am 22 years old and I finally decided to stop poisoning my soul with fake love. One day ago I decided to end the cycle of needless sin. I have decided put down my sins and to pick up the sword and the shield and become a warrior for God like a was meant to be. This is a plea to all those suffering with the same choice I refused to make to save myself. Never give up. There is a way out. Sometimes it?s a door and sometimes you have to make a door. Never give up. Help is on the way. It could be a friend or an ad for FreedomBeginsHere on the back of a Rush of Fools album. You never know. All roads lead to Jesus and so they are all blessed. Godspeed and God bless. Jeff

 

 

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