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Tough Nights wrote:

My first experience with porn was around the age of 11. It wasn't really peer pressure or family issues, but I was molested years before, which could have triggered it. By the age of 14, I was fully addicted to porn. Any time I was alone, I was attached to my computer. By God's Grace, I was saved when I was 16 and my life dramatically changed. The fight got harder only because I was Mentally fighting porn. I would shut down the computer so I wouldn't look it up and I even set a password on the TV for adult programs. Things got better until I got a cellphone. Internet access dragged me back to porn and nearly ruined my life, but God pulled me out. Til this day I am fighting back my urges to watch porn, and God is by my side. You cant overcome this without God and don't try to. This is my testimony. Freedom Begins Here.

 

Anonymous wrote:

I'm at the end of my rope. If I cannot stop I'm not sure what will happen. It's gone on too long and I've tried to stop too many times to count.

 

John wrote:

well at my worst point, i was looking for porn and actively searching for porn about 4 hours a day. whether it was watching videos, looking at pictures, reading stories, whatever it was that day, it would take me for multiple hours... until i almost lost my girlfriend. it was then that i knew i had to do something...

 

Herbie P. wrote:

I never thought I would share this with anyone, but after reading this site for a week, I woke up this morning and decided that even though my testimony would only be shared in cyberspace, it's still a step forward. It all started when I was a kid. I was ten years old and had just woken up for breakfast. While I got dressed, I could hear my dad down in the kitchen. He was hollering, "Some fathers have sons that will rally around their father and try to help out!" My dad had tried to open a balloon factory but it bombed quick and was a big financial burden on us. Then I remember what he said next hurt me so bad. He said, almost shouting, "But not OUR SON! Oh no, OUR son is a LITTLE FAT NOTHING!" Yes, I was, as I am at the time, a round, fat kid. My bowl hair cut and glasses didn't help matters but I had always tried to help around the house. But that didn't stop dad. All I was to him was a "little FAT NOTHING." What did he think I could have done? I was only ten, he's the one who chased that silly dream of balloons and invested all our money in it, not me. But from then on, I was always the "little FAT NOTHING." Now dad had never gone to church and even mom and myself at that time were still going to synagogue, and that was only when my grandfather was in town so as to make a good impression on the old man. Well, flash forward ten years later and my insecurities about being a "little FAT NOTHING," came to the forefront. I didn't think I was worth looking at and didn't think anyone could love me. It's around this time I met a girl who told me about her Wednesday Night Mini-Revivals. She and her family spoke in tongues and praised Yahweh in ways I'd never seen before. This "little FAT NOTHING" became intrigued and I started going whenever I was free. My dirty secret was, I wasn't going because I was interested in the tongue talk or anything else, but this girl. I soon realized it wasn't love, but probably lust as I had an inappropriate dream some days after that first meeting. Well, I never spoke in tongues but that did start me down a slippery slope. A slope I'm still trying to get off of. I don't know, maybe it's because I still feel like a little FAT NOTHING that I'm here, but this website has given me hope. Thank you for allowing me to post this ramble. I know it won't inspire anyone, but I maybe, just maybe, this website will set me and other little FAT NOTHINGS free from their shameful past.

 

Anonymous wrote:

My husbands porn addiction has taken it's toll on me, how I feel about my self is sad. I have gained so much weight and am totally discussed with myself that I don't want to wake up. There was a time that I was ok with me, I was serving the Lord with fire. The Holy Spirit shined from my eyes, at this time of my life there is nothing left. I am done, I want to love me again and have an intimate relationship with someone. Men who are addicted to porn, never have nor get that close oneness with a woman. I love Jesus, and I am moving on. Amen!

 

klyfoxx wrote:

I told my story a week ago and everyday I feel more and more angry with this addiction. 15 years is enough! I am now feeling cheated on and that there maybe a man that wants me not the computer.I don't know what he watches but I have a 8 year old daughter and I worry about child porn. Any thoughts on that?

 

 

Anonymous wrote:

I have been married 35 years in May, my husband is addicted to porn and I still have the pain that I have dealt with for the past 35 yrs. I didn't know these things about my husband until approx. 15 years ago. He knew how I felt about porn, being raised in church, and my faith in God, so he did it behind my back. I am now 55 yrs old and wish I would have done things differently, but I have two beautiful daughters and a grandson. I don't want to hurt anyone but I am considering a divorce. I am so lonely and the thought of what he does while in the computer room with the door closed just makes me sick. We went through this another time, I left for a week, and my reason for coming back then was the fact that he promised he would get rid of the computer and all of the porn in our house, he did but one year later he bought another computer, supposedly for me because he thought I missed our other one, well guess what I didn't ask for a computer and knew what was going to happen. He is deeper and deeper into the porn sites and the movies, the noise actually wakes me up in the night and makes me sick. I don't think I can take much more, I really want out. He has never been a christian and he doesn't think he is doing anything wrong. I have tried to explain to him that Lust is the same as adultery to me, which he has also done in the past. I guess I stayed for the children back then, but now they are married and on there own, the want me to be happy. They have walked in and caught him and I was devastated. I am just sick over this and have been praying for years that something good will happen but to no avail. I don't know what to do! Who can love a 55 year old woman with no hope for her future!

 

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